Hey mom,
I'm struggling a lot right now. I've been struggling for a while.

Everything feels like it's really hard. Doesn't matter how easy it should be.

Going into work has been difficult and I'm worried about my future, I have no idea where I'll be in another 2, 3, 4 years.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life and I've lost a lot of my passion and intrigue.
I wish you were still around to help.

I want to do something different, work isn't working anymore and I don't enjoy what I do. I'm having difficulties dealing with lots of mental health issues and I don't know if anything is actually working at all.
I just feel so trapped and I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm sure I'll get through this eventually. But it hurts so much, and I don't know how much longer I can take it.

I love you mom.
~Corey

17 years ago you have been gone and when I met you you were 17.
I still remember you from time to time for you changed me like no other friend has.

Happy birthday mom.
Dad gave me those letters you wrote us forever ago, you were a little off on the ladykiller line :D
Things have been going well with Jake, we have some time off work so we're painting the living room. How exciting is that? My first real home improvement project since I moved out. I'm sure you've been watching over us and keeping us safe when we need it.

I love you.
Still missing you every day.
~Corey

Been 16 Years since we lost you.I'm Still here, still think about my old friend. The good friend you were. We had some great laughs and you always had a way to make people smile. When you knew you were ill you said I hope people remember me. Well You had no idea...

Still miss you a whole lot old Friend.

WOW its been 3 years since I last wrote on here we all miss you so much everyday and not a day goes by that I don't think about you I love you so much and always will. tomorrow Corey will be 22 and I couldn't be more proud of the young man he has become and the same for Tyler the 2 of them make me so happy and proud to be called their dad we made a couple of great kids sweety and I know your looking down at them with a ear to ear smile. your Bday is coming up soon and we'll go out as we do every year for your favorite dinner of sushi and have a bunch of laughs remembering the goofy stuff you always did and more than a few tears because we want you here with us I LOVE YOU nighty night dream of happy stuff {{{HUGSKISSES}}}

I haven't written on here in a while but I have been thinking of you a lot lately. Kasara just turned 18 and I see so much of you in her. She loves cutting hair and music just like you.
I bought monkey bread the other day too :)I miss you so much! Lylas forever!

I miss your smile and looking into your eyes I miss hearing you laugh and the way you told stories I miss hugging you and waking up next to you everyday I miss your kisses and the warmth I would feel in my heart from just your hand touching my cheek I will always love you and I will never let you leave my heart {{{HUGSKISSES}}}

Every once and a while I listen to you sing. Still miss your laughter.

Just so u know I told Corey I wuld take him to get his tattoo for you!! I got mine done 4yrs ago and I cant wait to take him for his!! I think about you more than most would think, I miss you everyday and wish you could of been here to meet Ryenn.. Shes a great kid, always smiling just like you and definately knows how to make people laugh too! Love you and miss you xoxoxoxo Oh yeah about the wrong initial on my tattoo that would be ur lovely husband n my uncle that gave me his middle initial instead of urs. impossible to fix but i just say its for Aunt cuz its what u have always been!!

wow its been a long time since I wrote you but i had the best dream ever of you coming to say hi while I sleep but this time I woke up crying like a baby "tyler and I were sitting somewhere checking out a new computer and you came walking up like always gave tyler a big hug and a kiss then you turned to me kneeled down on the floor between my legs wrapped your arms around me looked into my eyes said I love you so much I miss you and I said I miss you too I want you to come home are you ready to come home and you said yes I really want to come home" thats when I woke up but thats when i wish I could sleep for ever to be with you again if i could relive any part of my life it would be the time we were together all of it the good times the bad times and if i could change anything well you never would have gotten sick I love you so much sweetie

still in my thoughts and prayers